getting numb...nt exhausted anymore =(

today just finished editing my formal report and one datasheet...not very productive because i keep watching tv..haiis..hate myself
today still can breathe..hoo~
but tml there's still 3 datasheets and one assignment waiting for mii to do =(
i've been controlled by all these work..no freedom..no sleep..no satisfaction(no matter how hard u try)..NO LIFE

if i can i would give up my studies..
this is not what i want at the first place..
life sucks with the presence of mii..
hope i can get through it..

haiis....damn damn damn tired...nth can describe my tiredness now....i think i can even sleep on the road i oso dun care liao...really very tired...haiis...
from last fri every night reports do until 2plus to 3...and tml is the worst day ever!!
a formal report and test on same day! wth...my brain is almost dead now lor...
haiis...
go orh orh liao...tml 8am lesson =XX arghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! hate school!!!

haiis...i dun feel like going to sch tml =(
hope that i'm sick!!!
i hate thursday..esp odd week de..arghhh!!!!
i feel like crying...i dun wan...i hope it faster end...
didn't do much work today..very disappointed...haiis...
i cant sleep =( but tml's lesson start at 8..haiis
life is so sad rite now...

disappointed...

haiis...
presentation tml...zzzzzz hate it!!!!
and today end sooo late...damn sleepy but still have loads of things nt done...arghhh!!!
haiis...
very sad now...because of something...i'm acting like a 3 yr old child...cant stand myself...damn useless...haiis...
is there one day that i could pluck up my courage and not so dependent on my mom?
i doubt so....haiis....

=(

sometimes you work hard for certain things and have confidence that u will sure get it...but it turned out to be the opposite...
this is the first time that i wanted to achieve something for the sake of myself and...
i have nothing to say...in the end i still should blame myself...think this will make me feel better...
BUT i will not give up until i get what i wanted...not to prove to anyone else but just ME...
i'm just so disappointed in myself...
n so sorry towards myself...

just watched absolute boyfriend-last chapter...damn touching...sob sob...so sad...
its always the robot sacrificing ='(
i want absolute boyfriend 2!!!

STRESSED!!!!!!
Desperate for timeeeeeee timeeeee time!!!!!! arghhhhhh.....
this is the first time i'm so damn damn scared abt having exams...