the ugly truth..

haiis..today is a bad day...
i finally believed that i'm invisible to her...
i tried so many times but what i received were my sighs...
i guess its bcos of that incident which created a big gap between us...
i alr had a clear picture of it long time ago...but i just couldn't persuade myself to believe so..
now i'm finally awake..and i know that what has done cannot be changed or even covered up...
when something is broken, don't ever think of amending it, bcos you will never suceed in anyway no matter how hard u try...
it takes 2 hands to clap and even if one of them tries so hard, it is impossible to hear something.
ever since that day...we have nth to talk abt except some minor things like drama...
i tried to focus on that..hoping that things would change...but it doesn't seemed so...in fact it makes me realise the ugly truth behind which i seemed to have been escaping from.
we are no longer the way we are used to be anymore..we have CHANGED. and it is a BIG CHANGE.
i'm so regret...but that doesn't change a thing.
haiis...
hope that time will heal everything but not change it.

haiis...

feeling kinda sad all of a sudden...
i cant sleep again..haiis
everytime when mom is asleep i would think of this problem again..
i'm trying hard to escape...trying hard to cover up with my work...but..it is still there...
i dunno how to face it and i dun wanna face it...
i have no idea how am i going to deal with it...
i feel my life so incomplete ever since that day..
i wanted to change it but i NEVER had the courage to do so...
i hate myself for that..
i know i might regret if i were to let it be..
but, with this thinking, i still cant do it...
i feel like a coward who dare not speak up for herself...who only knows how to escape...who doesn't even bother to make things right..

Gosh..i'm soo addicted t this drama..."The Vampire Diaries"
its so nice and interesting! love it...
i cant wait for episode 7...haha

today went to watch "500 hundred days of summer"...some parts are so funny..laugh like hell...

the ending damn lame sia...and summer is a person's name, nt the season...LOL

the male lead was very cute! haha!

But we sat right at the back and the seats were so low until part of my view was blocked =(

but overall its an interesting show haha! =D

went to bugis junction after movie...saw jt n her friends the second time...

she looked so worried when we met her earlier on...

luckily she manage to meet dao her friends...

itp...

itp has ended last fri..now finally have time to blog abt it...
in the first 2 weeks i was praying so hard that this 6 weeks can past as fast as possible..
but as i adapt to the working life, i begin to like this job alot..
i met nice people ^^ i feel so happy.haha.so lucky.
those days have already become part of my memories...and i wun forget them...
i learnt quite alot during this period and was under stress for a period of time...it was a good experience i guess =)
i wanna say a big THANK YOU! to all the people that i met during my attachment period (although none will see it..lol...)
now i'm back to studying again...need time to adapt again...lol
this sem is definitely more hectic than the last one..sobxx
but the happy thing is i'm back with my friends again! i'm soo happie =DDD haha!
hope i can cope well this time (gave up my language class =( hope its worthwhile...if not..haiis...it has been a tough decision..have been thinking for one sem..haiis)
i'm so useless...
haiis! dun wanna think abt it alr...wanna focus on my studies this time...
i must improve!!!!!!!!!!! jia youu!!! ganbatte kudasai!

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we r just like 2 parallel roads...
though we r side by side...
but we'll nv meet each other in any way...