finally matsc case study is over and i'm clear of presentations..yesterday slept for 2 hrs plus and went to sch today...slept during PI lesson while the lecturer was busy dl-ing her video. OMG.this is the first time i really slept in class...i was really too tired despite finished my whole bottle of water, i still feel sleepy sia...cmi. and throughout the lesson i was opening and closing my eyes continueously. tt feeling was damn xin ku...wan to sleep but cant, wan to listen but nth goes in. arghh! sometimes i really hate myself for doing my work so slowly and think so slowly when the lecturer is explaining. HATE IT when i cant absorb during class. cos everytime after the day has ended, i would end up forgetting everything. HATE MYSELF FOR THAT. haiis! felt so inferior=(
since this sem starts, i nv felt satisfied with my work for once. dunno why. and i'm damn fustrated over this. haiis.

nxt week will be having two test and need to hand up two datasheets...
then the following week another two test (one is exam)...and is the deadline for formal report too...so dead.
then will have one week for study (includes 3 days CNY =( ) and its the end sem exam! omg is damn damn damn fast and i really had no time to revise.
Hope i can make it....

haiis...exams are coming again....
time past so fast even before i can react to it...haiis.
i began to miss my life in year one and two already...
year3 to me is a nightmare tt i have been escaping from...n now its time to face the reality...feeling so lost and sad. haiis.
i'm afraid i cant cope for this end sem exam.i haven started studying yet...
i wanted to have time to study so badly but i just dun have the time...
still have lots of datasheets to complete and also formal report...
i cannot score badly again this time, i cant afford to do so...if not i will never have the chance...
i'm really scared...

feeling tired already...
i dunno why am i so stupid...
i wan to get things done but i just coudn't do it fast...
everyday, i have been thinking what should assignment should i complete today after sch...
but it is ALWAYS half finised. i'm so disappointed in myself. and i feel so sad about my results and i dunno why. everyday i got the fear of missing out important things from lessons...fear of not able to finish the work i'm supposed to do and implicate my friends...fear of my results...fear of not able to understand my work...fear of not able to do tutorials...and i dunno why and how i felt this way. i felt the mst results were so fake and not mine.
i wan to do a good job but i am just so stupid. of so many things i have done, none make mii satisfied and none seems good work to me. =( i'm scared of everything now.

sianness and double sianness

haiis...
sch just started nt long..its ony the third day
and assignments seems to be piled up alr =(
i doubt i can survive any longer.
so many things due on the same week.
pressed for time and stressed up!
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